New Beginnings

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New Beginnings © www.toothbrushtravels.com

Last month I promised an announcement on my birthday.
As you can probably tell… I’m not the most punctual person when it comes to my blog, because my birthday was on the 27th and that date has been and gone and there has been no declaration of exciting news,
and for that darling blog readers, I apologise.
My posts have been sporadic of late but all of that is for a reason, and by the end of this post you’ll know what that reason is. But before we get into that, I wanted to start from the beginning.

Which started with Christmas and “Secret Santa”.
I had pulled the name of one of my colleagues who was leaving to go travelling in March and I knew exactly what I wanted to get her. The only problem was… I couldn’t find it.
I searched for three weeks on (almost) every inch of the internet, and whilst there were many options that bore similarities to what I was looking for, none of them were quite what I envisioned. I huffed and puffed for a while before settling on a different gift, however as time went by I still wasn’t quite over the fact that nobody had made what I was looking for.
But then I thought to myself, if nobody else is making it, why don’t I?

The idea stayed, just that, for a while.
I had to let it fester because I have a knack for throwing myself into things and it taking years before I realise it isn’t what I want to do. But months later the idea of making my own products still consumed every moment of my spare thinking time, and with every second I spent thinking about it I grew more excited and more nervous. And so I brought myself a Wacom Intuos (Mum – if you’re reading this, it’s a tablet which is like drawing on a digital piece of paper!). I spent days learning how to use it, weeks doodling whilst I attempted to get used to Photoshop, brush types and pressure sensors. And then I spent a month ignoring it because it took me a day and a half to draw a cat and I was stropping because being shit at things really really sucks and throwing a hissy fit is what grown ups do.

And then I realised that I was stalling, and that if I didn’t start being proactive I’d spend my life wanting to do it but never actually getting around to it. So I went on Facebook and Twitter and I set myself a deadline, my 24th birthday. It was five weeks away and I thought that would be plenty of time to have everything ready by.
I thought that come August 27th I would be able to say:

GUESS WHAT YOU GUYS!
I’VE OPENED MY OWN SHOP!
IT’S ONLINE AND SHIT SO YOU CAN’T POP IN FOR A CUP OF TEA AND BISCUIT
BUT COME AND LOOK AT ALL THE PRINTS AND JOURNALS AND EXCITING SHIT I HAVE MADE FOR YOU.

But August 27th came and went and I wasn’t able to say that to you because five weeks wasn’t enough time for me to get everything ready by. It wasn’t enough time for me to plan, source materials, find a print shop, design the shop element, correspond with my web-designer and, yano, actually make my products.

It was enough time for me to start designing my products.
It was enough time to realise that this blog and everything I’m doing with it is 100% what I want to spend all of my time doing.
It was enough time to realise that I could really do this.
And it was most definitely enough time to freak the fuck out because I was actually going to do this.
So whilst I can’t show you my products because they’re not 100% finished just yet, I can tell you this:

YOU GUYS.
I’M TOTALLY OPENING MY OWN SHOP.
IT’LL BE ONLINE AND SHIT SO YOU CAN’T POP IN FOR A CUP OF TEA AND BISCUITS.
BUT I’M TOTALLY OPENING A SHOP.

I can also tell you that I am terrified.
I’m terrified that I’ve taken on too much.
I’m terrified I won’t be able to source the right materials.
I’m terrified nobody will like what I’m making.
And well, to be honest, I’m just plain old terrified.

But someone recently reminded me that you will end up exactly where you are meant to be.
And even though I’m terrified, I feel like I’m where I should to be.

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