A New Year


 
As the car door slammed and the stones grinded beneath my feet as I made my way out of the carpark I took a deep breath. For today was the day I would finally make it to the top of Kingley Vale.
 
I probably should have picked a better day for it to be honest because for the past six days I’ve been hella ill.
But when I set a goal, I set a goal and as the end of 2016 approached I knew it was now or never…
Or yano, next year if we’re being less dramatic.
 

 
Climbing to the top of Kingley Vale is a small goal really, one that many might deem as pointless.
After all, why should making it to the top of somewhere be a priority? Especially when it’s not a particularly long or treacherous walk. It’s just a few miles through beautiful nature with one hella steep hill (if you go the difficult way like we did) and a whole lot of flat terrain before and after. But Kingley wasn’t the direct goal.
Making it to the top of Kingley Vale was simply a a sub-category of my main goal:
To finish what I had started.
 

 
You see I am queen of starting and not finishing them and Kingley Vale was just that.
I have walked the nature trail on multiple occasions in the past year, yet for various reasons…
 

 
Such as the above little cutie (who definitely isn’t built for miles of walking), it had been over a decade since I actually walked all the way to the top. So with lungs full of lurgees and a whole lot of determination S and I set off.
 

 
We walked for hours.
Mainly because I couldn’t breathe due to coughing fits (because my body has betrayed me by letting me get ill despite all the vegetables I fill it with) and partially because S decided that getting off the beaten track and climbing the steepest part of the trail would be the best route. But eventually we made it to the top.
 

 
Reaching the top was lovely. Not just because I was able to sit down and yano, breathe again, but because as I looked out over the beautiful view obscured by what is possibly the foggiest day I have ever encountered, it felt strangely metaphorical.
 

 
As though even when goals are reached or realised, things won’t always seem clear, but just because you can’t see what’s coming doesn’t mean it’s something negative that’s lurking behind the fog.
 
And I realised that I am afraid of things that haven’t happened and because of this I have put off so much already. I put off opening my shop on this site for so long now. Too long.
At first it was because I wasn’t sure if it’s what I really wanted to do, and then I felt as though I wouldn’t create something good enough that people would want to buy it, and then it was money because I crashed my car and had to buy a new one so that set me back a few months, and then it was that I realised setting up an online store is time consuming when you’re doing everything yourself in between designing, writing and working full time and even more so when you want to fulfil orders yourself rather than outsourcing it all.
 
And as I sat there gazing in to the distance daydreaming I realised that sensitivity is what’s holding me me back. I’m a natural born over-thinking people-pleaser who is scared to put myself out there because of fear of failure, and I really need to stop caring so much. I mean sure, there may be people who might not like what I create, but if I don’t suck it up and do it then how will I ever know?
 

 
2016 was a pretty epic year for me in terms of self-realisation.
I realised that my self-deprecating personality meant that I never really take time to celebrate my achievements.
In 2016 alone I worked, as a blogger, with a huge travel operator, I quit my job without having another lined up (again), I passed my marketing course with good grades, I landed a job in my chosen field and I wake up excited about going to work in the morning (well, about 70% of the time – I’m still human and love my bed).
I found confidence in being unapologetically myself and found the courage to stand up for myself and others when needed instead of wishing that I’d said something. In addition to this I’ve discovered my blog ambitions, have made a plan of action to achieve them and whilst not much has changed on the surface – everything’s changing behind the scenes, and it was only as I sat there over looking the foggiest of views daydreaming about everything and nothing, that I realised that I’m actually quite capable and should stop criticising myself so often. Because when I stop watching series of Lucifer and actually crack on and do it, it would appear that I am rather good at getting shit done.
 
And so my goals for 2017 will be pretty much be the same.
– To maintain the focus and clarity I gained in 2016.
– To live a life full of everyday adventures.
– To stop letting fear of failure stop me from trying.

What about you lovely lot?
What did 2016 teach you about yourself and what are you hoping to achieve during 2017?

  • Well 2016 has given and taken a lot of things from us, so I better feel to be happy with what we have 🙂

    • Yeah it’s been a turbulent year that’s for sure.
      Here’s to hoping 2017 is everything you hope it to be!

  • Sonja

    Love your pictures! This place looks amazing!

  • Rachel Bee

    Such a great post and I love the photos! Totally feel you on the illness right at the end of the year!

  • Rikki Lynn

    Loved this read along with your pictures! Happy New Year 🙂

  • Jenn Marie Arrigo

    I hope to achieve success with my blog and to be a great mom 🙂

  • Nora Tarvus

    Looks like you had an amazing views up there! I hope you have a great and adventure full 2017!

    Best, Nora

    • Thanks Nora – you too!
      Views definitely would have been better if there wasn’t so much fog but was beautiful nonetheless.

  • For the realisations, I definitely feel like the walk was worth it – happy New Year lady – cheers to a fantastic 2017. I think you’re amazing!
    Love,
    A fellow over-thinker

    • It definitely was!
      Kylie Jenner said it best when she said that it was the year of realising things 😉 because as cringey as the sentence is, it’s held true thus far! Happy new year to you too lovely!

  • This place looks seriously picturesque and a great place to shake off a cold and reflect on the year past!

    • Was perfect for exactly that Suze! (Minus the cold. Would appear that mine is sticking around for a while longer *sob sob*)

  • Well done for persevering, I am happy to hear you had such a successful 2016 and found focus – but I hope this doesn’t mean you will stop travelling?!?! 2016 taught me a lot about persevering too and working my butt off to complete my teacher training (woo Qualified teacher now!) Thanks for all your honest blogs, they are inspiring 🙂

    Happy New Year

    • Hiya Katie – definitely doesn’t mean I’ll stop travelling, quite the opposite in fact!
      I didn’t travel anywhere near as much as I wanted to last year and much of my focus came from questioning what type of life I wanted to lead and finding that the answer was a flexible one where I am able to take trips on dates of my choosing rather than working around other people’s schedules. My shop and all that comes with it is a step in making that happen!

      So glad 2016 was such a productive year for you and my biggest congratulations to you on passing your teacher training! Happy new year!

  • Beautiful post, and Beauutiful pictures. 2016 taught me to love myeself, and to be patcient in my abilietis. Thank you so much for sharig I hope you have the most amazing 2017

    • Thanks Jenise! So happy to hear that 2016 was a good year for you in terms of self-realisation. Hope 2017 is just as kind to you 🙂

  • Thanks Kitty! Been trying to nail that last resolution for the past two years so here’s hoping that I can do it consistently this year haha!

  • Definitely something about being immersed in nature that clears the mind Katja!